My Teaching Experiences

I'm a graduate student at Boise State University just starting to work with the school districts.

This no-frills blog is my account of my experiences in the school setting.

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Tuesday, May 01, 2007
Well, other than the wrap-up stuff, I'm done. It's a good feeling, really. I think that's my big motivator in life - that feeling of accomplishment. Some people get a thrill out of the process, others in starting new things (that's my mom)...me, I like to finish stuff.

I've grown more accustomed to the eighth graders and have grown closer to a few of them. I think it was good to go through the transition of not liking them to liking them - especially as I feel I have a better appreciation for them now. At this point, I'm not worried about a teaching placement next year. I'm sure I'll like whatever age group I get.

At the beginning of this quarter, I was often frustrated with third hour. They are a modified class and were quite a challenge for me. I think now, though, that one of the big reasons it was such a challenge for me was that T---- tries to teach them the same way she teaches the other classes. That class just needs more assistance with things - needs things more spelled out. I think they also need more guidance and responsibility checks. If I were to work with them more in the future, I would implement this. As it is, I'm glad to have this knowledge, as I'm sure I'll have a modified class in my future.

I came to learn other things, too. Like that I have a definite preference to not have my desk in view of the hallway. I will often sit and eat and work at my desk at lunch. During that time, I like a little privacy, which I don't feel when my desk is so near the door. It makes me self-conscious. It doesn't bother me to have students in the room - just to be in line with the door.

I also learned how to work on a productive team this semester - one that stays on task and is encouraging with the students. I'm quite glad to see not every team will be like my last one.

I'm a little sad to be leaving the eighth graders at this point. I'm really just starting to get a feel for them. Today at break I talked about piercings with some students and after school another couple students shared their artwork with me and asked what I like to do in my spare time. I feel like they're just now getting to the point where they know me well enough as a teacher to want to know me as a person, but it's just time to leave. I'm also starting to notice the kids I don't know anything about yet. Like C---- and B----, who are quiet, middle-of-the-road students who don't talk out, don't volunteer and don't pass notes. They do their work and show up on time. It's almost like they're trying not to be noticed. It's those kids I would like to talk to more...but won't have the opportunity. I look forward to being with students for an entire school year next year, to really have time to improve and foster those relationships. Something I know that I will definitely do is ask each student to come into my classroom at the beginning of the school year perhaps after school or during lunch - just for a few minutes so that I can get to know them all individually. It's so important to me to do that. I've mentioned that to seasoned teachers, who have all told me that they just don't have the time and I'll discover that I don't either. I will make the time for that.




Saturday, April 14, 2007
I'm beginning to think that eighth grade isn't for me. Maybe it is, and I would just have to have more ownership over the class (last year I really enjoyed working with the seventh graders), but as of right now...I don't know.

It is difficult being in someone else's class - and being all the time reminded that I am in someone else's class. It's a great way to finish off my student teaching because I'm not developing lesson plans and I'm not grading anything, but it is difficult stepping into someone else's daily plan and enacting things as dictated. Sometimes I wonder how I'm going to plow through.

I have one student in particular, L----, who causes problems all the time in class. He talks out, asks off-topic questions, disrupts the students who sit around him, and finds any excuse he can to leave his desk. The thing is, I really think that most of the time he means well. I also think that a traditional educational setting is exactly what this boy doesn't need. I think he needs more interaction, more hands-on activities, more conversing, and more problem solving. For the large part of my day, I feel like I'm spoon feeding them lessons. This kid, I think, would really benefit from a less direct approach, from a more laissez-faire approach where the teacher is much, much more of a guide just to make sure he doesn't hit his thumb with the hammer. I just don't know how to give that to him.




Monday, April 09, 2007
This week I discovered that I had grown closer to my ninth graders than I had thought. When they see me in the halls, they shout out a hello and a few have stopped by the new classroom to say hi. One stopped me in the halls specifically to chat and tell me she wishes I was still in her class. It didn't occur to me that I would miss them after only nine weeks.

I'm starting to learn more about the eighth graders, though. Their names are coming to me and I'm starting to get a feel for their personalities. T---- thinks I'm going to have a super difficult time adjusting, but I'm not. I'm just adjusting is all. I'm making my way through the weeks, knowing that the end is near. Right now, I'm actually more worried about all the end-of-semester wrap-up for my 102 class and applying for teaching jobs.




Monday, March 26, 2007
Well, I'm done in K----'s class. I feel such a sense of finality with it...I'm done with my whole unit, I said good-bye to the kids, I've said good-bye to K----, I packed up all the stuff I had in my desk, I turned in grades...It just feels like I'm done....Which is going to make it even more difficult to return next week and start all over in T----'s class.

I feel like the unit went pretty well. These are some of the small things I hope my students have been able to take from the unit:

    * There are NO SLAVES in TKAM. Slavery was abolished more than fifty years before the book takes place.

    * Mayella Ewell was NOT a slut, whore or a prostitute. She was a lonely, neglected young girl whose father probably beat her. In trying to seduce Tom, she was merely looking for a friend, trying to feel connected to somebody.

    * Tom Robinson did in fact have a left arm. He couldn't use it, but he did still have an arm.

    * The character of Dill, even though developed from the author's life-long friend Truman Capote who is homosexual, is not necessarily gay. We actually know nothing about Dill's sexuality other than that he wants to marry Scout when he's around eight-years-old.

    * The mockingbird is a symbol for multiple characters including (but not necessarily limited to) Tom, Boo, Atticus and Jem.

    * Calpurnia was not a housewife. Atticus was a lawyer. Miss Maudie did not gossip. Dill lied about being abused.

    * Lynching someone was worse than just beating them up or threatening them to make them afraid of you.


Of couse, on top of that, I want them to understand the basic storyline, know the characters, recognize the symbols, and feel some connection to the novel, but when it comes down to it, these are the things that were most difficult for most students to comprehend. At first, I was really worried about the book and how the students were or were not comprehending it. However, the more we got into it and the more work I did with it, the more it appeared to me that they were interested in the book. They were excited to watch the movie, they talked about the book before and after class, they became better able to act like the characters and respond for the characters and they did better on quizzes (on the last quiz I gave, all but five students in seventh period received an A on the quiz). I definitely feel success with this unit.

Something else I felt success with was the memoir projects. I had students write a short memoir from both their own perspective and then from the perspective of someone else involved in the memoir. Then, they had to put both story lines into a book. Most students did very well on this assignment. Some students put obvious extra effort into at home. They turned the memoirs in on Monday and in every period Tuesday they asked if I had them all read yet. I had to disappoint them and tell them that it would probably take me the entire week to read and grade the memoirs from all 140 students who turned one in. I enjoyed reading them, for the most part. I found that many students poured themselves into this project and what I received was beautiful. I would definitely want to do this project again, but in the future I wouldn't want to split up the work days. I would to the entire project by itself for one week. The way I did it - split up over a couple days during the second half of the quarter - was too disjointed.

Overall, this quarter was a success. Like I said, it will be difficult to start all over next week since I currently have the feeling of being finished with something, but I suppose I'll trudge through it on my way to graduation. (I think it wouldn't be so difficult if I was staying in the same classroom, incidentally, because I wouldn't have this feeling of finality yet.) I will miss my ninth graders, but I'm sure I'll grow to know and love the eighth graders just the same.




Tuesday, March 20, 2007
Thursday, one of my students said to me "Ms. H----, I've decided something recently."

"Oh, really?" I asked. "What have you decided?"

"I've decided that you should get a teaching job at Borah next year so that you can be my teacher again," she said. I thanked her and told her that was very sweet. Later, when I told K---- about it, I told her that that student is now obviously my favorite student.

But seriously, I feel a serious connection with the kids I'm working with. I've worried recently that I haven't made an impact with them in this short period of time. I've worried that I haven't taught them everything that I should have or that what I have done with them won't stick with them. But, hearing statements like that make a huge difference.

I realized that C----'s grade has been slipping so I gave him a list of everything he needed to make up with a note telling him that I know he isn't a D student because he is a good writer, he is not a behavior problem and he honestly knows everything going on in TKAM. When I gave him the work, I told him that he would do it and that he would do it this weekend. I told him not to blow it off. Monday, when he walked into the class, all he told me was "I did all my work this weekend." No hello, not his usual nod. Just that simple, complete sentence. I know it may be seen as favoritism, but I've been trying to give all the D and F students assignments for make-up work this week. I just needed to go one step further with this kid. I can't give up on him; I don't know what it is, but something drives me to work harder with him than other kids.

Looking at the grades going into the final week of classes, I'm not that impressed:
A 23
B 38
C 33
D 20
F 14


So, without trying, it's almost a perfect bell curve, with just over a quarter of my students (27%) not passing with at least a C. Interestingly enough, my worst class grade-wise right now is third period - not fifth period (the one with multiple IEP, 504 and ELL students) as K---- told me to expect. I'm interested to see how that changes over the next week as late work trickles in and the last few large graded items are entered into the system.




Saturday, March 10, 2007
I learned the value of being well prepared for an unexpected substitute. After Monday when I almost lost my voice in class I lost it completely that evening at home. I also developed conjunctivitis that evening. I had my husband call K---- and let her know that the doctor forbade me from leaving the couch for two days due to my illicitly contagious state. Thankfully, I had everything for the week ready to go already so my husband was able to give K---- simple directions as to both my plans and where I keep everything. When I returned on Friday, the trial was over. I was sad to have missed it, but I hear it went well. Granted, I had the best substitute teacher ever, since it was, afterall, her classroom she was taking over for a couple days, but I would have hated to have my husband call her and tell her "Well, you'll just have to figure out something for the next couple days..."




Monday, March 05, 2007
It feels to me like I have been doing this student teaching thing forever. I think that at the end of nine weeks I'll have a good feel for the job. I wonder why student teaching has been extended to sixteen weeks...Who complained? Why was this changed? I love having this experience and I love getting a good, solid feel for the job, but I don't see it as something I need to continue into fourth quarter. Perhaps that has something to do with the fact that I'm not looking forward to being with T---- for seven weeks. I am a little less understanding of differences than S----, who's with T---- now. S---- tells me that being with T---- is frustrating at times because of her constant negativity, but that she just keeps her mouth shut and goes on with life. I have a much harder time just keeping my mouth shut - even when it's perhaps more appropriate to do so. I guess that T---- thinks I'll want to do my own lessons and take over her classes completely. However, the truth is that I want to do as little as possible next semester...

On a side note, and more directed at my students, I had them read chapters 12-14 on their own (but still in class) and fill out a worksheet of 20 questions as a reading guide to monitor reading and comprehension. When I graded them, I was surprised to find that a large percentage of students failed on the worksheet. Even smart students who generally do well in class fared poorly. I know K----'s big on an even spread of grades, but I have a real problem putting that many failing grades into the grade book. And so, I have offered them the opportunity to take it home and redeem themselves, turning it in tomorrow. I really, really hope they take me up on the offer.